When I was younger I used to daydream about what my future would be like. I always dreamed about having a small property, having horses, some chooks and enough space to have quiet and privacy from the world. I wanted to have my kids while I was young and I wanted to get married when I was young.
One of those dreams came true and I am so thankful that I was able to have my babies when I was young because they have been the reason I’ve stayed relatively sane!! Am I resentful or sad about my past? No, I feel like my past has made me who I am today and I’m happy with the woman I have become. Would I handle some fairly major events and situations in my past differently if I knew then what I know now – abso-bloody-lutely!! But at the end of the day our past is thankfully in the past and that’s exactly where it should stay.
I often hear people ask what advice would you give to your younger self? My advice to the young, undamaged and naive Susan would be to stay away from people and organisations who try to control you and who make you feel unworthy because you don’t march to their tune or measure up. Stand up for what you believe in, don’t judge others, seek out kind-hearted people who love and accept others with no conditions or judgement.
When I came across these photos the other day I couldn’t help but notice the hope and joy in my face. I’m glad we don’t know what kind of difficulties are ahead of us but I’m also thankful for all the lessons I’ve learnt as a result of the difficult things which have happened in my life. I may not have youth on my side anymore but I don’t give a rats arse about aging and I truly believe my wrinkles, my sunspots, my wobbly backside are part of who I am and part of my journey – like it or leave it.
I’m looking forward to the future, I’m living in a beautiful part of South Australia, I’m working with a great bunch of girls, I’m making new friends and enjoying a less hectic lifestyle so thank you Past for the lessons you have taught me so far and cheers to the Future!!