H.T.F.U. suzi-girl!!

It seems when I’m having a shit/emotional day I get inspired to blog. Yesterday was an emotional day for me, it was probably a combination of having pmt, a week of 40+ degree weather, and the fact that it’s usually in the middle of summer when I have a mini-meltdown about being a bald fucker! I never wore hats or beanies when I had my own hair and now I am effectively wearing a tight swim cap and a beanie in 45 degree weather all day, every day.

The photos in this post say it all, the first one is my gorgeous hair, the 2nd one is when I’d lost half of my hair so I went to my favourite spot in SA to grieve and say goodbye to the girl who I knew was soon to be gone forever. The third photo is a bit tragic and I’m a bit embarrassed to post it because I’m usually pretty good and putting things into perspective but I was a right sooky-sooky-laala that day. I felt so lost, sad, gutted and I didn’t know how I was going to reinvent myself yet again.

Almost three years later, I cannot believe how much life has changed since I lost my favourite part of my femininity but I have to say that most of the time (except in the middle of summer when I’ve had enough of wearing hot sweaty wigs) I’m pretty bloody chuffed about all the changes I’ve made in my life since that day. I left the suburbs/got rid of the mortgage, I’m finally working a job that I love, I’m about to start my training in Nursing and as an Ambo officer.  Over the past few years I have learnt that no matter what life throws at me I will survive or I will die ungracefully with my middle finger in the air but with my head held high because I did all I could to make the most of the life I have been given 🙂

7 thoughts on “H.T.F.U. suzi-girl!!

  1. Linda Barnes

    Ah Suez! Please, don’t ever stop telling it like it is. As much as we all live in the fake Facebook world of “look at me & my happy, perfect world”, that is just not reality for the majority of people. I love your honesty & how you explain the raw, guts level of what is going on in your life.
    I understand how much it means to you to have lost your hair and what that means to you as a woman. My heart grieves with you.
    What I see in you is a woman of incredible depth, steely determination to be all you can be regardless of the fact that you have days where you want to curl up in a foetus position & stay there. You are going to be an awesome nurse & ambo and a huge part of that is because of all you have been through. Your capacity for compassion & your genuine care for people (well, apart from those who piss you off! :), will be a gift to those who are having a shit life when you come into contact with them.
    You truly are a fanbloodytastic, baldalicious woman, whom I have the utmost respect & love for.
    Love you, my friend. xxx

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    1. Thanks little Hobbit and yes, you know me too well – I have a low tolerance for people who piss me off 🙂 Thankfully I don’t have anyone in my life that falls into that category at the moment. What a bloody circus life can be but it definitely shapes us and hopefully turns us into better human beans. It’s going to be another interesting year for us both, no doubt it will be another one to look back and laugh and cry about when I’m 90 and you’re 100 and we’ve lost our marbles. Love you heaps. Suez xxxx


  2. Julie

    Lovely blog as usual well written. Please start publishing these. Your an amazing strong woman. Love you heaps. We will live together one day. And smoke mugwort and laugh about all drama of yesteryear. XOXO

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  3. Caroline

    I’m so proud of you mate. You’ve dealt with everything life has thrown at you with true strength and a fab sense of humour! You are an inspiration to others, look at all you’ve achieved!! Miss you crazy beautiful girl 😘

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